Often at night when I am starting to doze off feeling the crisp and cool sheets I envision the house I will live in with the wrap around porch and my home store down the street with my dogs laying peacefully and greeting people as they come in. If you have a vision of something you want to achieve run the image through your mind daily and it will happen and I know this is true.
When I went to treatment it was explained that I had rewired the dopamine levels in the brain and that it could take anywhere from 1-5 years for my body to repair it’s self. I use the term flat nothing made me feel happy I wasn’t necessarily unhappy either I felt nothing. In the last 3 months I have started feeling again. I believe my dopamine levels are becoming normal again a good way to describe it is a natural high. When I drank my body received such a dopamine high from the wine that nothing else could cause the same effect, now that I have been sober awhile other things are giving me the dopamine high.
I had the day off so I worked on my shabby chic table, I really don’t remember the last time I have felt so “high” from something so menial. I have envisioned how my table will look in the corner with the sun coming through the window. I have completed my table now I get to add and subtract vintage items, art and plants. Having this project has helped me stay inspired and excited about Henrietta’s Hippo I put a few pieces on the table I am going to play with it see where it takes me that is what gives me the high I got these wonderful globes for christmas I am going to hang them in my bay window.
I am going to New York at the end of the month for a buying trip I am so excited for the adventure Henrietta’s Hippo is a true blessing for me it has given me hope and something else to envision lets see where this takes me.
From our home to yours,